Emotional Walls

i believe the heart has many facets with many locks that require many keys..and the people that come into your life hold keys that open up certain parts of your heart and that is why you act differently or similarly with certain people - based on the keys which they hold. 

i know that is why i only like showing emotion to certain people..because they hold the key that opens that part of my heart. but those that have abused that key have forced the door shut far tighter than it was before and the locks have changed now. and i don’t know how or when to open it again.

The truth is, I'm in pieces

It was all his til I was forced to take it back 

But in that insane tug of war, I only managed to recover a tiny shred

He doesn't even know how much I left behind

And now I'm trying to rebuild it by bumming love off of passerby

I thought I was fine 

Now I'm 5 people in but still longing for old parts

Hey stranger, 

Can you help me love this new heart?

truest statement of the year: i have given 110 to someone who possessed what i thought was my skeleton key. but he didn’t understand or appreciate that insanely precious privilege and gift. now i can’t comprehend when people do appreciate or understand or who treat me the way i treated the person who didn’t care. so, I'm sorry future guys. purely because you get to deal with a heart that you didn't break. and i don't know which one is worse: being in love with someone who can't love you back, or not being capable of loving someone that deserves every bit of it. i guess i've been on both sides now, babe.

xoxo

Sam